I dream about sleeping with him!
I dream about talking to him, blissfully.
I dream about having some fun with him!
I go into the woods.
I go to a car dealer.
I go to a meadow.
I run over to him.
I leave him to it.
I wait and think for a moment.
I think: Oh crap! Why am I lumberd with this dog! Then I say Hi.
I think YES! Come over here baby! And I speak to him with a huge grin on my face, saying hello.
I think, oh it's nice to be talking to Jake and say Hello.
I swear in my head and smile poiletly, explaining that I don't have long.
I think OH YES! One step closer to Jake! Then I grin and tell him that I'd love to.
I think, alright, I might as well, then I tell him it would be nice.
I tell Jacob that there is someone over there, pointing.
I look at the figure, and wave.
I run over to the figure in the hope that it is Edward and leap into him.
I ignore the figure and turn back to Jake.
I swear in my head and tell Jake that I really must go now.
I grin and carry on speaking to Jake.
I give a puzzled look.
I tell him that I really have to go now.
I tell him that I'm just seeing things and sit down.
I say to him that I thought I saw someone.
I choke down my tears that he is leaving and swear in my head and give him my phone number.
I say thanks, bye.
I try to keep my huge grin that is pleased becuase he is leaving and thank him.
I sink to the floor and weep.
I stand there, unsure what to do.
I run after to where I think the figure has gone.
I run over and leap on him.
I go over to him.
I go over to him, my face full of how I feel, anger, he made my jakey go away.
I tell him that I know that, I saw him before.
I tell him that my name is *whatever you name is*
I say nice to meet you.
*I take a deep breath and don't say anything*
I tell him that I love him.
I beg him not to leave me.
I say bye.
I ask when i will see him again.
I ask what the hell is going on here.
I tell Jake to get off Edward!
I tell Edward to go away.
I tell him that I love him too.
I tell him that I'm sorry, but I love Edward.
I blush and kiss him, presuming that he knows what I want.
I tell him whatever he wants.
One, it was only accidental.
None at all.
I will have to think about it...